This made me mad, so I wrote about it:
I do not love my body right now.
Some days I don’t even like it.
I don’t like the way I feel in it.
I don’t like the aches and pains.
I don’t like that noone touches it.
I want to be body positive to inspire others.
I’m not proud—I mostly just feel awkward.
I’m not supposed to complain about this.
I don’t like that I even have time to complain (privilege).
I don’t love myself this way.
I feel like I can’t breathe well.
I don’t know how to get past the fog that’s in my head.
I need someone to move with me.
*Now and then I find myself telling myself what I’m “not” supposed to be feeling—eg: hating my body is a no no—which really just tends to make everything worse. So I thought I’d just try completely doing it, letting myself go there, then seeing how it feels. Now I’m left feeling somewhat emptied of this negativity, and better. If you are having a hard time dropping or stepping out of neuroses, recommend this sort of exercise.